Chapter 0546

As I stood in the shower, alone, flashes of last night flashed in my mind. At some point, I had fallen asleep on the chair. Alec had carried me to our room, removed my boot and cuddled against me as I slept.

However, this morning, I woke up to his side of the bed, empty.

It was still dark, I checked on Adalynn who was sleeping still and the fresh footprints leading away from the front door told me he must have gone for a run. If he wasn’t back by the time I got out of the shower, I was going to mind-link him.

Still, Iwasn’t convinced I had any repressed trauma floating around in my head. However, seeing how much

Alec was suffering as he watched me heal time and time after again. It made me realize that it wouldn’t hurt to be extra careful. My life isn’t just my life anymore and as much as I wanted to be carefree to have a risk free life, it may not be that way.

The hot water felt good but Adalynn was going to be awake soon. Stepping out, I wrapped a towel around me and walked to my closet. Since I was going to be working in my shop today, I picked out a thick pair of leggins and a long dresser sweater. That would be easy to wear my boot with. Still feeling alittle cold, I picked some fluffy socks out to match. Wanting to look a little more presentable, I added some makeup and did my hair. I was getting really good at curling my hair. Adalynn started crying right as I was finishing

putting hairspray on.

“Hey baby girl.” I cooed as I went into her room. She reached out for me. My heart physically ached as I thought about not being able to do this again. It was too the point that I had water in my eyes as I changed her diaper and carried her to the high chair.

Unfortunately for me, Alec got home as I'was wiping my eyes. “Are you okay?” “Yeah. I just was thinking about everything you said last night and when I went to get her, I just couldn’t help but thinking if I died, I wouldn’t get to ever see this little girl grow up.” Alec came over to me. He was wearing a sweater and sweat pants but he still felt cold from being outside. “I'm

sorry. I didn’t mean to put all that on you.” “This can’t be a one sided relationship.

You can’t be worried about me that you can’t emotionally open up to me.” I pushed him away as I tried to dry my tears.

Adalynn was starting to cry as she wanted her breakfast. “Mommy’s cutting up a banana.” Alec went to comfort our daughter as I finished it up.

Taking the cutting board, I pushed all the bananas on her try. “There you go.” I said, smiling through the tears.

I started on her bottle as Alec watched me work. “How are you feeling?” Glancing at him, I had a sarcastic noveldrama

remark that I couldn’t hold back from.

“Emotionally, physically or sexually?” Alec rolled his eyes at me but couldn’t help smirk at me. “Physically.” “I’m still cold but okay. Ankle isn’t too bad but still really sore. Should be better by tomorrow.” I pulled up my sleeves. “These bruises are already looking like they are healing.” My forearms were basically all yellow at this point.

“Emotionally?” Alec asked as I put my sleeves back down.

Setting the bottle down on Adalynn’s tray, I leaned against the counter and looked at him. “I don’t know. What you said really got to me. I guess I have some thinking to do.”

Alec just nodded in response. He looked at Adalynn for awhile and back at me. There just felt like there was this space between us and I didn’t like it.

“Why are you feeling... almost broken hearted?” Looking down, I went to the sink and started loading the dishwasher. “I guess I feel like there is this disconnect between us now. I don’t like it.” Alec move to come closer to me but the door bell rang. “Damit.” Alec muttered as he went to answer it.

Truthfully, I was a little relieved as I was about done talking about my emotions but I didn’t like feeling like Alec and I were on two separate planes.

Thad just finished cleaning when | Vivian and Alec walked in.

“Good Morning!” She was all smiles

today and Adalynn started screaming in delight.

“Good morning. I need to run but I am going to try to be back early today to spend some quality time with Adalynn.

Give you the evening off.” I gave her the best smile I could muster right now.

“You don’t have to do that but I guess after the day you had yesterday, good quality family time is what is most important. Nothing is more important than family. I'm so glad to have an alpha and luna that have such a great relationship that they always put each other’s needs first and now their daughter.” Vivian grabbed a wash cloth and started cleaning Adalynn up.

Alec and I just looked at each other for a moment, not saying anything. It

seemed like forever until I took a deep breath and put on a fake smile. “I love you little girl.” I said with all the emotion I could give. Feeling like I might cry again, I quickly kissed her on the cheek and waved

goodbye before darting into the garage.

Grabbing the car keys and my coat, I got in and started her up. The garage door opened, allowing me to pull out and head to my shop. Thankfully, the roads were bad but I still drove slow as I needed the time alone. So much for what little makeup I did as I just allowed the tears to flow down my face.

Maybe I did need this.