Chapter 125

Loiza's POV

Nina is ugly crying right now her makeup is an absolute mess. Antoine is trying his best to console her. Ura is smiling with his arm around me again, Freya is smiling too, proud of her man for giving Nina the shamming of her LIFE! And I'm covering my face with one of my hands while reclining on Ura. I was STUNNED! It must be hard for her... I am almost sure he's her favorite. And URA! I thought I knew him from top to bottom... I didn't know he carried all this resentment! We always confided in each other about the stupid shit our family members would do, but THIS...

"Hernán drop us off at Clemente's please!" I just wanted some fucking fun!

"As you say Cacique!" Beer is best right now.

None of us are talking as we get out and find a soundproof bench outside. On my LIFE we will have a civil conversation! This could break The Circle!

"Five light ales please!" I order.

"At once Alpha!" I prefer to wait for the beers. Let everyone to take a breather. I already hate this edible! We get our drinks and yeah we ALL needed the drink!

"Okay... That was A LOT! Nina sweetie, do you need to go to the bathroom? Water for your face? Do you want to go back home?" Sigh...

"No I'm fine just... Give me a moment." She says solemnly looking at herself in her high end compact mirror. She's always liked VERY nice things. Now that I'm Alpha I understand it, I have come to enjoy the comforts that come with the burden... These boots are high end crafted by Masters, I would have never had boots this comfortable before! I would never been able to JUST have them in my previous place in the pack and I hated asking Dad... She would ask Maco for money all the time... I guess I have my own resentments too...

"Ok, Ura... Is there anything else you you would like to just let go?" I'm looking at him pleadingly.

"No that was pretty much the bulk of it!" He took one sip and crossed his arms. Ura has NEVER spoken this much and given his direct thoughts to Nina, or ANYONE for that matter... Not even me! Did he seriously have to pick today?! I felt like I was sober again! Thank the Goddess I had extras! I looked at Freya and she had Ura's same stance... She was his Twin Soul after all and she must be feeling exactly as he is with the memories just as alive as he is feeling them right now. So of course she will take a stance by her man! And right now I'm so glad Natalia is not here...

"Ok... Does anyone have anything to say? Nina, Ura just poured years of pent up shit. We all have it and you know it! You're a thought bitch so cut the bullshit, he gave his piece, do you have anything to say? This is The Circle damn it! This can't break The Circle, I think we can all agree that the people in The Circle are the ones we love most... Right?! Ura? Nina?" Nina raises her eyes to him and drops them again.

N: "Yes..."

U: Sigh... "Yeah."

"Good... Good!" I say gently... I know this is a disaster.

"Look, this is not a bad thing. It's actually GOOD!" I'm going to have to be very creative here. Both of them can smell bullshit a mile away! And right there they look at me like I've just lost my mind... Damnit! I look at Antoine with pleading eyes, I know it won't work with Freya she's basically Ura. He's nodding at me as a sign that she's really calmed down. I pointed out the beer so that she can take another sip, if I have to get her drunk as a skunk by the Goddesses I will! I WILL have my fun day if it's the last thing I do! I think the stupidity of the meeting this morning gave me a new life of determination to cut loose. Oh well here we go...

"Guys... I NEVER use this card and you both know that under normal circumstances I would NEVER use---" Ura stands in attention and Nina gasps.

"OH SHIT! IZZ... IT'S YOUR BIRTHDAY!" Ura smacks his face, Freya smirks and glares at Nina, Antoine drops his head in shame. It all happened so coordinated that it looked scripted! I found it HYSTERICAL and I burst out laughing and crying at the same time. The tears were of everything but mostly the laughing, and Freya buckled... Antoine can't contain himself anymore and he just started laughing too but the time his own laughing tears were coming out Nina and Ura were looking at each other smiling fighting as hard as anything to hold it in! It didn't work... Nina is Nina and she's easily contagious of laughter! It's why she's always with Talia and I think is the only thing she appreciates from Bayoán... His sense of humor. And Ura is naturally easy going and laid back... That's why he's my favorite and I love him to death, started laughing hysterically as well! I really needed that laugh. I took a deep breath and chugged my beer down.

"Did you you guys coordinate that?! The Kappa here is Nina!" I called the boy that was serving us so that he can put the order in my tab

"I'm sorry..." Nina finally gives in. Well no shit!

"Seriously Ura, Izzy... Ura you're right!" Tony is holding tightly to her by the shoulder encouraging her to just let it out. He's been really good for her. I'm so happy to call him brother and comrade his advice has come into play in many of my decisions. He is my unofficial counselor and I'm pretty sure that behind closed doors he gives her a piece of his mind. She has changed a lot since being with him and I will always be grateful to him for it I feel like I have a better sister because of him.

"I'm really sorry, I didn't think of any of you. You're absolutely right to feel everything you have been feeling. Izzy I'm sorry to you too... I was unfair to you back then and didn't man up to it. Look, there is really more I need to discuss with all of you, we got to clean this out. But Izzy has used her trump card and she has earned every bit of it, so what do you say brother can we call it a day and talk about this later you and me? We can do it in The Circle whichever way you want I swear I won't be a bitch about it! Izzy's right we can't break The Circle over something like this and I know it's my fault and I take responsibility. And we will also talk it over when Talia gets home, because she will be home safe, and we both did mistakes and I guess she also has to step up to hers and I know her well enough to know she will. Are you okay with that brother?" Ura stands up and goes to hug her ang grabs my hand to join him.

This is how the pack survives...

"Ok, Nina is your YSL in place can we go now?!" I get more caramel from my pocket and pass it around and we all take another.

"I'll have you know that this shade is from a local bra--" I mess us her lipstick.

"Oh shut up! Lead the way thou horniness! Toys remember?! Ura I'm not a Gamma anymore and my mate isn't here. Lucky you that gets to pound YOURS every night but I don't even have that luxury. So quit your own bullshit! You're a grown man with a child! So stop! And thank you for always standing up for me I'm so lucky you're my big brother!" And he leaves Freya behind a bit and puts his arm around me as he has done countless times in the past. The storm has pass, The Circle remains... We can't have cracks HERE, The Circle is my shelter! It's the ONLY place I can be MYSELF.

It was the same with Víctor, I could always be me and say ANYTHING, even horrible things and I knew he would be loyal with my secrets... But he was something else. I guess there will always be love in my heart for him, I can't wait until HE gets the report from the other Betas of what happened today. I'm not angry at Janaína or Shomari, they are new to our ways and it's the first time they are in a position of power. I know Víctor will target Bayoán for his stupidity and chastise him himself. Probably worse than me!

As I keep walking in Ura's warmth I look at my sister being held by her mate giving her comfort, I need my mate... I have allowed for EVERYTHING of me to be open to him except for the secrets that I can't share. He will be able to see what's happening now, it should be Kayden and not Antoine advising me. I know he's getting stronger and is growing very aware... Through what little I can feel through the Bond it feels like he's discovered something VERY important. I put it back in my mind.

I have to make things good with Casimar too. Regardless he is my Admiral now, He didn't even look at me today... And I remember being naked in his arms and him kissing me with so much love and longing. He was never as bold as Víctor even though he himself is an Alpha. I could feel his anger this morning, he was so angry to be there... He needs MASSIVE up grades for two of his ships. His report was the first I read last night as I prepared for today, thinking about it, he stayed silent too. After reading his report last night I had contacted the techs to work on it at once... Yet he was angry.

I'm done, enough! My brain is in overload! We reached the first stop... Thank the Goddess!