Chapter 123

**Tzalmon Point of View**

For the nth time, I sighed dejectedly.

I knew what would happened when I present myself before her. But I did not expect the strong woman from the past has changed a little.

She has always been a little too scared of things around her but now, she was a little more cowardly.

However, it did not go beyond my notice that she was not just concerned about herself or Igses; there were many other things she was worried about, which directly or indirectly are connected to me.

I wanted to talk to her and tell her how guilty I am. I wanted to apologize her for all the intentional and unintentional scars I gave her.

Except, she just doesn't want to even breath the same air as me. There was a lot of pain, anger and most importantly, coldness in her eyes whenever she looked at me.

In the darkness of my bedroom, under the moonless sky, I just stood my the window facing the Winters villa, looking at it with mixed feelings.

Mr. Winters sent me away telling me that Eblilis is not in a state to talk to me. I could only come back and wait for her to calm down first before I express everything I felt and currently feeling.

Eblilis along with Igses and Aviva, is staying at Winters' place for the time being. Seeing how she was emotionally spent, the Winters must've used a lot of cards to make her stay. Or else, with how she has been keeping her distance with them, she would've returned back to her place once she was calm and clear headed.

I could only wait for now and let her take time to think things out clearly. With another sigh, I walked back into the dark room to rest.

It took a lot of time for me to fall asleep, thinking of ways to have a chat with her.

A week has passed in silence from both the sides. I gave her space and time and neither Eblilis nor Winters took initiative to talk to me or find trouble with me.

Now, this silence made me uneasy. If they expressed their anger or hate, it would be better because in that case, I will at least know what they are thinking and how I should thread forward. However, this silence was more like the one before a storm.

So, with no other choice, I decided to meet her again and this time, I made sure we were alone and could talk well.

In that regard, I chose the place that could assure she would not make any big attempts to run away or throw me away as well.

I looked around the room and quietly waited in an inconspicuous corner. After nearly twenty minutes later, she walked inside and closed the door shut as continued with her own work.

Her eyes are now a little listless and she was not as lively as she was in the past several months. The moment she sat down, I quickly locked the door from inside and sat on the chair visitors chair opposite to her.

Before she could say or do anything, I leaned forward and closed her mouth with my hand.

"Shh, I'm just here to talk to you. It's not good for you to do anything in your office. You have your employees working outside this door. It will be uncomfortable for them to see their boss in messed up emotional state." Her eyes were so cold when looking at me that for a moment, I felt my heart being squeezed by an invisible hand.

She struggled to take my hand off her mouth but I held it tightly, she finally calmed down and did not struggle anymore.

"Don't worry, I just want to talk, that's it. Don't shout, please." I added and after observing her for few more seconds, I pulled my hand back from her mouth.

"Why are you here?" She gritted as soon as her mouth was free.

"Like I said, I want to talk and explain myself." I said softly. I waited for her to say something but when she did not, I took the initiative to do so.

"I'm - sorry." This was not the first time I apologized her. However, I was certainly genuine this time.

"Sorry for what?" She composed herself and leaned back in her chair as she looked at me blankly.

"For everything. For everything I did intentionally or unintentionally to hurt you."

"In that case, tell me what you are sorry about. What are those intentional cases and what are those unintentional cases?" The past week has been better for her it seems that I saw a little bit of confidence now.

I didn't hunch back at all, I straightened myself and looked at her sincerely.

"I know I was wrong from the very first decision I made regarding you. I was wrong when I got you to the island in such a condition. I was wrong to imprison you in the castle alone. I was wrong to make you pregnant and I was mostly always wrong from there on. I should've at least explained you clearly when the curse was broken and we were finally visible again."

"For a king who was born in royal family, who only knows how to do things as per wish and only knows how to order around, I was wrong to not take your feelings into consideration. I know you suffered terribly back then and I was the main reason for that which I'm truly sorry for." I continued, sincerely apologizing to her.

It was not easy; not for me to put my pride down and apologize to her and not for her to put her anger and hate down suddenly.

Been living in the mortal world among the powerless humans for quite some time as one of them, I understood many things.

I mainly realized that no matter if it was king or a husband or a father or a Politian ruling the country, they have no right to control a person too much and cross the bottom line of the person's tolerance.

Sadly, this was what I did in the past.

"Why did you erase my existence from this world?" As if she did not even take my words seriously, she continued to ask me coldly.

This time, I heaved heavily, thinking of a way to answer her in a better manner. "It was not intentional."

"I want to know why."

"I - didn't think you would be able to come back so I just briefly thought of -" I paused for a moment to think well and continue.

"Thought of locking me there infinitely and cut all my escape routes and even I did escape, I would not have anyone to lean on so it would be easier for you to catch me and bring me back to your kingdom. Is that what you thought of?"

Damnation!

Even though I did not reply back, should tell that her guess was correct. It was truly unintentional mistake on my part which I just took out of unfound confidence that she couldn't get away from my hands.

I was arrogant and ruthless back then, I agree. Even though I want to clarify myself, I cannot because that simple reckless decision of mine caused her to go through hell and back.

"I'm truly so-"

"You intentionally sent me and Igses over to your enemy's territory just so you can create an opportunity to defeat him. Am I wrong in assumption?" Good Lord! Seems like there are things I did which cannot be amended so easily.

Why I was such a muddle headed man?

Her eyes pierced me and I know that even if I don't reply her, she knew the answer again.

Several minutes, both of us are silent. I glanced at her feeling sorrier for every passing moment while she glared at me with such an intense hate that inwardly choked me.

This is what I brought upon myself.

She suddenly stood up from seat and walked to the door, unlocking it and holding it open for me.

"I might even forgive you everything you did in the far future but your decision to use your own son and his mother by scheming, pushing them into the danger just to catch your enemy off guard and kill; I can never forgive or forget that."

I opened my mouth to give her some kind of explanation but she did not give me any chance and continued.

"If you just used me, it was still alright because people from your world are insensitive towards female gender and always treated them as a possession. However, you had the heart to bait your enemy with your own son; even a crocodile doesn't eat its own children. You proved to be worst than an animal. Now you come and pretend to show Igses some kind of fatherly concern, say, would you take your apologies seriously if you were in my place?" I stood silently, not letting out a word out.

Now I realized that she could let the past go somehow in the far future if she was the only one who suffered.

I know, using Igses was not just a simple mistake on my part, I was shameful as well. But what I did was indeed something no father would ever do. The boy was only months old and I did not blink before sending him away with his mother.

This mistake, how can I ever wipe away the stains of it?

"You are only just words. All your actions were only used when you do bad things. Igses will never step into Thunders again. Keep your distance from him and me. We don't appreciate you in or around our lives. Our simple life cannot afford the presence of your esteemed royal self." She held the door open, waiting for me to walk out.

Seeing her impatience, I walked out, feeling lost and ashamed of myself.

I truly deserve this!

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