Chapter 128

**Tzalmon Point of View**

You are no different to your father!

You are no different to your father.

You are no different to your father.

Those words are still drilling painfully in my ears right into my heart. She said I was not any different from that man. And by the looks of it, she meant every word she said.

I can tell easily that she wasn't trying to hurt me or disappointment me, she truly meant it. She thinks I was no different from my father.

My father is a taboo in not only my life but also in my realm, my kingdom. He is the one person I wish I had and never have anything to do with. He was the person who caused all the troubles for my race and me.

He is the real monster whom I loathe more than anything in this world.

To be compared to him; did I really give her such a nasty impression of myself?

I feel so lost right now. I truly, wholeheartedly want my wife and son but I also realized that the chemistry and feelings between us should be formed from the scratch on the basis of trust and honesty.

Trust and honesty are two things that she does not relate me with.

I really want to change my ways, I genuinely want my wife and son back in my life. I know how precious they are and want to treasure them.

How am I going to do it?

What she said was true though! I never asked for her permission or opinion before nor did I explain the reason behind my actions. I just imposed them on her. Now that I want to repent, I cannot ask her the reasons and ways to do so.

This is so messed up. I really messed this up a lot.

Now, at this moment, I don't know where I stand and where to start from anymore. She is so rigid towards me and I don't blame her; I understand her.

"I think we might have to get our powers back, Majesty." Azar said hesitantly.

"I agree. With our abilities back in our control, we might change the tide somehow." Gyles supported making Azar nod in agreement.

However Eelk, who has been more mortal from the beginning frowned and disagreed. "Why? Isn't it better if we have our powers back?" Gyles scowled at Eelk.

As much as I don't want to agree to it, I think Eelk's disagreement makes sense to me without any reason given.

"Sir Gyles, our powers should be back and it is always better to have them. However, that will not make the situation between Majesty and Lady Dawn any better. Say, if we have the complete hypnosis power, will Majesty control Lady Dawn' mind and get her back?"

"What nonsense are you talking?" I roared hearing his crap. I already have many things to make up for and if I really use magic to get her, I will be done for ever. The current zero chances in pursuing her will go down to minus.

Zero is better than minus, isn't it?

"Right. Majesty, when you don't want to use magic to get her back, then why worry about your powers that you don't have now? We will get back our powers when the time comes. Maybe, some miracle might happen and the memories of Lady Dawn resurface back in this world." Of course I know that.

I'm not worrying about magic right now. I did not want to use my magic to get her back as well.

"Do you think I don't know that? My problem now is much more difficult than get the powers back." I rubbed my forehead and ran my hand through my hair several times. The stress will make me bald for sure.

"From the moment the truth came out, Aviva did not reply back to my texts, never picked up my calls, did not accept any of our appointments. In short, it's been many days since I last saw her. I even sent her an email explaining the whole situation from my end but neither did she reply back nor did she ask me for further clarification. Every moment passing by without seeing her, hearing her voice, is turning me into a zombie." Come on now, are you complaining about your love life in front of me?

I messed up beyond repair and even I am not complaining this much!

Eelk sighed and scratched his chin contemplating about his own love issues. "You only met her few times, what are you groaning about?" Gyles chided in irritation.

"Few times? The last time we met, I asked her to try dating each other and she accepted my proposal. She also expressed her romantic interest in me. We are textbook example of match made in heaven. How would I know that the first day she became my girlfriend will be the last time she would talk to me?" Eelk is now whining like a child who lost everything.

But what he said caught my attention. "Date? You asked her to be your girlfriend and she accepted? Why?" I asked getting interested in it suddenly.

"Majesty, it is of course because we like each other."

"Why does she like you?"

"Umm, because I was good to her, we share many commonalities, she makes me happy and I make her happy too. She once said that with me beside me, she feels a sense of security. For women, sense of security, respect and loyalty matters more than love. If a man can give these three, they will not think much of the toe curling sweet love. However, if any of the three is missing, no matter how much you love them, you will end up losing them."

"And despite that, she is still not talking to you." Gyles mocked Eelk but to everyone's surprise, Eelk actually smiled back.

"Sir Gyles, you are wrong here. She does like me. What she is doing is taking some time to think things over. On one side is her best friend who suffered a lot in the past and on the other side is me, who works for the person who caused her sufferings; say, is it really easy to choose sides now? Her best friend needs her so she is keeping her distance from me which is reasonable. I just have to keep trying yet give her the space and time she needed."

If you put it that way, what Eelk said makes sense. Eelk has always been the most understanding one among us. No matter how sad he is, he could still think about the situation rationally from his lover's perspective.

His words caused me to think of several possibilities right now.

"So are you so sure that Aviva Fortune will come back to you?" Azar looked quite interested in the ongoing topic.

"She will. If she doesn't, then I will go to her. Lady Dawn always had an alright impression on me so I believe that once the heat of the matter cools down a bit, she will vouch for me to her best friend. Milady might caution her to extreme lengths but she will also vouch my good characteristics to her friend. Lady Dawn has always been a rational and a kind person. She is good to those good to her and worse to those bad to her."

Seeing Eelk being so confident, I'm confused if I should be jealous or considerate. If only I did not do what all I did in the past!

Sadly, regret has no medicine.

"Then what do you think will make your queen give me a second chance?" I hate to lower myself to my subordinate for such guidance but right now, wife and son are more important than pride.

Eelk stared at me awkwardly and scratched his head with a helpless smile. "Umm, Majesty, you are past that stage now."

"What do you mean by that?" Seeing my murderous look towards him, he waved his hands in front me to cool me down.

"Majesty, why are you thinking about second chances when you don't even stand a chance to stand beside her more than a minute? As much as you hate me for telling this but Majesty, you are still thinking too highly of yourself. If you don't lower yourself, you will not get what you need." Eelk coughed several times before completing what he wanted to say. Soon after he finished, he jumped behind Azar and hid himself from me.

Before I could say anything, he continued, still hiding behind Azar. "I think you should feel the brunt of Winters before approaching Milady. Do whatever they may; the way to Lady Dawn is through her family. Only Winters can help you reach your destination."

"You want Majesty to get ganged by them?" Gyles pulled Eelk by his collar and shook him violently. I kept quiet and stared at the audacious subject of mine with a vicious gaze.

"I know I will die today but I will still say this. Majesty, you cannot expect to get what you want without putting efforts. If Winters make things hard for you, you -" He closed his eyes with a painful expression and bit his inner cheeks before spouting out, "-you deserve it. If they scold you, mock you or even hit you, you deserve it. If you cannot show your goodwill and change to Winters, they will never let you near Lady Dawn."

"Only Winters, precisely, Mr. Winters is the first and maybe the only person who can help you now."

Mr. Winters?

He hates me to death. If there is anything that he wish more than anything then it would be my misery.

He will help me? I highly doubt it.

But Eelk is right. Only Winters can help me and if I want to get my family back, I have to go through with the pain.

Heavens! Mr. Winters must be waiting for an opportunity to torment me to no end!

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